ROAD TO WORDS AND MOMENTS BY AMMARAH ARIF

My spirit emphasized me perceive these jiffies when my mother was slightly opening her eyes. 

Delight was permeating my entire body. 

This moment was like the last gulp that will irrigate the soul.

'HAZAN!' I could even feel the voice of her gust. 

'MOMMY! You love me so much that you can touch my existence. 

Come on! See here.' He was constantly rubbing her hands.

But she closed her eyes again. 

'MOMMY! MOMMY! See, your HAZAN has come back to you.' I shouted and shrugged her shoulders.

Hearing my noise, the doctor came in with that candy striper. 

The doctor held her ankle and placed her finger on the right hand of my mother's ankle.

'HAZAN!' Her voice gave me more hope, and I saw the doctor with those hopeful looks. 

'She will slowly regain consciousness.

There should be no loud voice around her, and the main objective is; Let her remember all the past memories.'

The doctor professionally answered me.

'She will be fine, Right?' He was leaving, but my question stopped him.

'Look! We can't say anything at this moment.

In such cases, patients and their relations lose hope gradually. 

At first, I was optimistic.

But seeing her condition, I am giving up hope with sadness.' 

He placed his hand on my shoulder and left the room. 

'She needs a mental rest. If you come to meet her regularly, she will be fine.' I softly kissed her head.

Two precious pearls from my eyes fell on my mother's face.

But these tears are not precious. 

Precious is the mother who is leaving me.

I couldn't bear it anymore, so I left the room. 

I took my luggage and walked to the house where my mother lived.

My mother lived in this foreign, unknown city, and even now, I am on the path of this journey.

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His condition and his position didn't change in the last two hours. His mind was erupting after thinking about; what he had done with his mother.

How did he get caught in such a weak moment?

He wished that he had responded to his mother's first call.

His condition was symbolizing burning red fiery, demolishing his senses. 

Hazan wasn't able to scrutinize, How and why his life entered into such heartwrenching moments. 

The flame engulfed his happiness. His eyes filled with tears as he remembered;

WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO ME? WHY ME?  

His senses were not entitling him to reach the answers to these questions.

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Preparations were underway for her arrival at the house.

She came out of the kitchen giving orders to the chefs.

When she saw her daughter placing her coat on the couch, A sympathetic smile touched his lips.

Her daughter was now reclining on the couch, and her eyes were closed.

She came from the back, and slowly she moved her fingers over her hair.

Her daughter smiled, held her hand, and she sat her down on the sofa next to her.

Her daughter had put her head on his lap.

'I am no anymore a visitor in this house.' While playing with her stawler, she hid her own face with it. 

'You are my daughter and, My daughter is my mercy. 

REMARKABLY, GOD HAS REWARDED ME MERCY.' He smiled when he heard his mother's words as he set foot in the LOUNGE. 

'So you care for me so much for this reward?' Seeing the mischief in her eyes, they both laughed together.

'It feels like God has blessed me a COMPANION!' Her smile was mirroring in the stawler.

'Save even a little bit of love for me. I am your real son!' He had snatched the stawller from her.

'I find solace in holding my daughter close to my chest.

And these are the obligations of love that I have to fulfill.' Sitting there, the two children felt proud of their lives. 

'Stay away from my Mommy!' Mischief was evident in his eyes.

'Jealous people! Why should I stay away? 

In fact, I will give you this advice, Don't come between two friends!' She threw the pillow on his head and ran away.

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Departing the cords of destiny;

Change the day with your wheeze and action.

He was sitting barren watching the spectacle of his life.

That was his childhood. His father died, and his mother was leaving him alone under the shadow of servants because of an unknown. 

'I've packed, and I'm leaving shortly.' He turned to his mother crying, 

'Stay ... Stay here for a few days.' A child was begging his mother for his life; the point of begging was that he was at her mother's feet.

'Living for a few days will not change your's and my life.' She answered him brutally.

'I... He hasn't replied to her behavior, and she announced her decision.

'I must go now, Hazan, I couldn't tolerate the eyes of this world's spectacles, and you couldn't even do so.

So I should leave.' He was anxious to hear his name from his mother's mouth. 

Now, he shouted, 'I don't care about the world. I see the world according to your eyes, and I care about you.

Dad has gone from here and from this world, but I need you. I am your son. How can you deny this?' She turned back and answered him.

'I am not denying...' He responded blood-red shout.

'You are taking me away from you. You are giving your daughter pain just because of your trembling fright for the public.' 

'But now, if you leave this house, you will not set foot in this house again.' He hoped that she might agree.

'I don't need this house anymore!' She did not leave even half of her reflection with the child. 

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His mother's loathing voices do not stop pursuing him. 

'I was the one who took you away from me, but now, I will sheathe all the distance between us with the tips of my fingers.'

'I will accomplish the cherish notions of my eyes!' 

But still, I knew I couldn't face my mother. When I come here, I have to supervise myself. I will not go to meet her.

I don't want to meet her anymore unless I have the courage.

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Covering her hair with the hat, wireless devices fitted in her ears, and she was running in the field with full force.

She was interrogating her chancellor with an incredible skill. No one can analyze if there was a boy or girl in that dress coat. 

'What about the case of Mr. YU-SHII-WIE? Had he called back for more details? She bowed to the ground, and now her hands were touchings her toes.

'Just compose a proper file and send me an E- message of that file; I'll skim through that!' She responded to what she heard from the next side.

'If you have any queries do contact me.' She was going to click the wireless device, but the voice from the following side stopped her not to do so!

'I need to talk to you. I was just; waiting for your call.' She knew what she was talking about, and now her smile was gone from her lips. 

'She remembers you and loses consciousness over and over again.' She didn't answer.

'I have paid rent of her house. ZABBIE also asks about you repeatedly.' She was her chancellor, who knew everything about her life.

They were bound in such an amour that was more profound than necessary.

'GOOD! You already knew that the state of affairs has bound me by my promises. As soon as I solve this case, I will be back.' She tried to smile and pressed the wireless device.

'We need your precious time that we deserve!' She heard a sweet beaming voice at her back.

'I might tell you that we're here for something consequential.' She removed her hat from her face, and she left astonished the passer-by.

'I am also here to solve this case, but I am not neglecting my relations.' He ran forward, and she was left behind.

'This guy baffles me with his phrases.' 

She began to run with full force. 

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She tried to assemble her footsteps parallel with him, and she had succeeded in her endeavor. There was a grin reflected on his lips when he saw her running with him. 

'Are you trying to fly forward? Are you trying to win over a lady lawyer?' She said while running.

'Can I dare to do such a worst action in my life?' He also did not refrain from answering. 

When she did not get an answer, she stopped her steps forcefully. 

'Have I remained solely in this route too?' She questioned herself. 

Will it be easy for me to go back after reaching this point? She ruffled of a sudden.

When he didn't hear her voice again, he stopped and turned to see her.

'What happened? Why are you stopped like a hangover?' He came closer and touched her hands.

'HAZAN! You didn't answer me?' Both of their faces changed at the same minute.

'Can I walk in my life alone? MEESHA, Come on, speak!

 Why is so much uncertainty even after arriving at this point in life?' His tone of voice was instantaneous.

'When I was feeble, you held me and brought me to the middle of the way, and I had your hand and reached the path of that belief.' She said, looking into his eyes and this right they had handed over to each other; they pray for each other's happiness. 

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I reside in my room most of the time. 

Along with Jacky and Zabbie, I feel that, my self-love chamber is merrier than the grabby place outside this room. 

There is a newborn sensation feeling; inside me by limiting my life towards my ways. 

I was brushing my JACKY'S head feebly, sitting in the open air on the balcony.

Where; I saw that It had completed its food, I stood to feed water to JACKY. (The scene left an endearing grin on my face.)

JACKY had a habit of drinking water after meals. 

I opened the door to go into the cookhouse, but I needed a lot of boldness to stride out. I stepped into the cookhouse and filled the mug with water. 

'You have also assigned the responsibility of other people in this house too! And you already knew that.'She heard her step-sister's voice at her back.' I at once turned back. 

'Which are those secret sources that are informing you about me? I laughed like a cute infant and replied to her by moving my first two fingers, 

'SECRET AGENTS OF FIA'  She came towards me and tried to grab my fingers, but I took a step behind. 

'Others also live in this house rather than that animal!' She didn't stop taunting me.

'The members living in this house are also animals. You know what, there is a difference between you guys and animals; they can't speak, and you can talk. But whenever you guys talk, you talk rubbish!' Aggravation was burning in my heart when she called my JACKY an animal. 

There was a stunning state in her eyes.

'Don't be surprised! Your attitudes have made me like this from within; 

I walked closer and threw all the water from the play mug like an action movement at my step-sister. 

'What's this?' She shouted as she couldn't move to save herself. I moved my fingers on her face like removing the water drops.

'Have a nice day, MAH DARLING!' I moved towards the tap, filled the mug, and left her alone in the cookhouse. 

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I had to visit her to bring her back to life.

I stepped foot towards the hospital with this feeling of determination but seeing the scene. My heart expressed strongly that only God changes the power and spins prayers into original form.

My MOMMY was talking to that sweet nurse. 

I ran towards the door and saw her face reflecting from the side mirror. Even today, while smiling, an impression falls on her cheeks.

I touched the face of the mirror as feeling my mommy's face.

'MOMMY!' My lips moved slightly. The door was still closed, and she was just across it.

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